Today was a "hang-around day" as the girls and I call it. My preschooler was home sick and so errands and outings were put on hold in exchange for paramount pretending and a healthy amount of television.
We played "resturnaut" (restaurant), "checker" (store) and celebrated everyone's birthday at least once with invitations, cake, tea and presents. Overall, besides being extra intense, it was an enjoyable day. My youngest refused to nap, I took my on-duty power shower at 5pm, and I never unloaded the dishwasher, but all of that is fine with me.
I just don't want to get sick.
Because Friday, I get to pretend to be grown up. I get to catch a train to New York for a day-long conference. I get to wear clothes I haven't worn since I was working. I get to network with other like-minded women. I get to hear perspectives from some of the most innovative Christian thinkers and writers today. I even get to visit with a lifelong friend and eat multiple meals in real "resturnauts." If I had a beret, you might just catch me tossing it into the Manhattan air as I stroll down the bustling streets.
And while I know that God has me right where He wants me, I obviously continue to struggle with being "just a mom". It can be challenging to accept serving "squeezy yogurts" as Kingdom work. I know I could be doing even more to serve this world and those who live in it. The question is: should I?
Coincidentally, the conference is all about Women and Calling. What roles are women meant to have in this world? Any one they desire? How do we balance work outside the home with that for our families? Do we "Lean In"? Do we "Lean Out"? Do we "Shake It All About?"
Because, clearly, despite our best efforts, we cannot do it all. But, for some reason, I still try.
Like today, I got an email from the conference requesting a title, bio and headshot to enhance our online presence at the conference. I immediately attempted to mentally craft my response in the whirlwind that is lunch, laundry, naps, and pooping shenanigans during naps. And since I wasn't in the best head space, I came up with something along the lines of:
Mommy (Miss Kristin) is never alone. She can be found constantly correcting her "clients" both two-legged and four. When everyone is actually sleeping she spends her free time planning for positions that she gets paid absolutely nothing to fill. While Kristin met her husband in college, she barely recognizes who she remembers she was at that time. She will always be a "Balti-moron" at heart even though her husband's successful career may move them away one day. Her happy place is at her blog, Kristin Has Two Eyes (which are probably closed. Shh. She's napping.)
But, don't fret. This is what I submitted instead:
Kristin LeFeber is a stay-at-home mom to her two young girls. She leads both an adult house church and the preschool ministry at New Hope Community Church in Pikesville, MD. Prior to domestic life, Kristin earned a B.S. in Education from Grove City College and worked as a Marketing Coordinator for the city of Baltimore where she and her family still live. She can be reached at www.kristinhastwoeyes.blogspot.com
Wish me (whoever I am) well. Like, literally. I really don't want to get sick!